Let me Introduce myself

Hi KM, 

Thanks for the reply.

In regards to my questions, there are a lot of them! For instance; where/how is memory stored/retrieved while in the in-between phase? How/what exactly is the relationship of consciousness with the body? How does it integrate with the body?Notice I don’t use the terms spirit or soul. I feel these are outdated and restrictive. These are just a few questions out of many I’ve pondered about.

As for my own personal experiences, many of these occurred when I was very young, some when I was no more than a toddler some 60 years ago. 

Let’s kick off with the first:

1. I remember waking up as a baby with the same type of nightmare. In it I was saying goodbye to a lot of people and walked across a bridge structure towards large building. I enter and I’m met by a few people. They guide to a table and tell me lay down. I do so, and as I lie I look up and notice that the room has a domed roof/ceiling which is changing colours. Quiet pretty! While typing this I suddenly got the feeling of Christmas and Christmas lights! Anyway, I hear a noise, like the sound of cicadas singing, but I can feel it through my ‘body’. The table holds me in tight, and the ceiling colours begin to rapidly change and pulsate. The ‘cicada’ noise speeds up as well, and suddenly I can feel the noise as pain throughout my body, then I feel being crushed/squeezed. Everything becomes confusing and I wake up screaming! I have a clear memory of this, and my mother coming in to pick me up out of the cot. I remember her saying; ‘poor Boy, he’s had a bad dream!’. Then I remember trying yell back at her and saying in my head something like; ‘It wasn’t a bad dream, it was a NIGHTMARE!!!’

2. I have a clear memory of my mother in the kitchen trying to teach me my name. I can see her clearly at the other of the kitchen. She was saying, ‘say Mark, say Mark!’. Then all of a sudden, I hear the familiar sound of ‘cicadas’ in my head, but speeded up, then all of sudden, my mind clears and I’m able to think like an adult! I see the green and black checked Lino on the floor, the warm blue sky of summer through the screen door, then I hear my mother repeating her request. But this time I try to talk back to her, not in english, but in another language, and I’m trying to say, ‘sorry lady, I can’t/don’t understand what you are saying! ‘what are you saying?’ Then suddenly as it started, my mind closes down and I’m back thinking like a child again!

3. I used to have a ‘dream’ of watching a woman in late 1800’s dress fall backwards out of a small boat into the water, and the panic that ensured in people trying to rescue her. I tried researching this as I felt it happened in Sydney (one of the national parks), but unfortunately accidents like this were all too common. 

4. I have a ‘memory’ of seeing my sister fall out of the back of the moving car. I was born a twin, and have a twin sister, and used to think that it was she who fell out. I remember a lady telling her not to play with the door handle just before she fell out. Then seeing my sister pull on the door handle and suddenly fall out of the car! I remember hearing screaming!! I asked my mother about this when I was about 7 years old, but was told it never happened. Again, as before, I researched such accidents, and again, these were all too common to narrow down. I feel that when this accident happened, it caused a more devastating accident. Possibly a fatality of everyone else. As a kid, I used to feel like I was ‘out of sync’ and should have ‘started earlier’, but this happened and a reset was needed.

5. This next one gives me the shivers, as I often reminded of it most days going to work. A a very young kid/baby, I used to have a VERY VIVID repeating ‘dream’ which was extremely detailed in every way. In it, I am travelling in a coach drawn by horses. I’m not in the coach, but standing on the back. I feel the time is about the mid 1700’s, either in France, or Spain. There is the driver at the front, the well to do passengers in the coach, and me standing on the back. We are travelling along this long narrow driveway/road with a gutter to my right, and the road is tree lined. We are not going fast, just trotting along, when suddenly four men appear from the side of the road and force the coach to a stop. They want to rob the coach! I feel absolute terror and jump of the back and begin to run as fast as I could back the way we came. I hear a gun shot, and feel a horrible pain in the back of my head, behind my ear on the right side. I fall down into the gutter. A couple of these men come over to see me laying in the gutter face down. That’s when I wake up screaming! Many years later I taught at a school which had a long driveway with a similar to that dream. Every day for years I drove along it and it used to trigger that ‘dream/memory’ most times. Then in my mid 30’s I developed Trigeminal neuralgia on my right side. The pain was similar to that in my dream. It was 7 years before I underwent brain surgery to correct the defect causing the issue. I’ve been in remission since 2002. Also, back in the mid 1990’s I had to get a tooth on my right side removed. The dentist examined me and then out of the blue asked me about the jagged scar on the right side of my chin? I said that I had always had it. Then she look at the X-rays, and said flatly that the scar and X-ray looked like I had taken a small calibre gun shot to that side of my face. I said I have never ever been shot or had any form of accident to that part of my head. I did say that I did have some rather rough dental extractions when I was 11 years old. It was a year later that I developed Trigeminal Neuralgia.

6. This next and final one is a head-scratcher. As a teen, I was into meditation and the usual 70’s stuff teens got up to back then. Anyway, I was trying to get to sleep one hot summer’s night, and finally fell asleep. I had this ‘dream’ and in it I was discussing some in depth topic with a person I could not see. Then all of a sudden I asked them, ‘ok, so who or what was I in the past?’. I don’t know what prompted me to ask that, but the reply was interesting! This person said; ‘Well, don’t you know/remember, you were a Visigoth!’. Then I was shown this scene of a well muscled man, not tall, but sort of stocky, running up this hill. They were holding some type weapon as they ran, and their clothes were a mixture of fur and cloth. From this hill I could see the sea, and a small headland connected to the mainland by a narrow strip of land/beach. Then the scene changed and I was looking at the same place, but it was now. The small headland had a lighthouse on it, and was surrounded by a car park. The narrow strip of connecting land was now a road. I had the feeling it was in the France or Spain area. Still can’t find it on Google Earth for those who may ask. This experience happened when I was about 14 years old. I’d never ever heard of the term ‘Visigoth’ before, and had no interest in history whats so ever! But I’ve never forgot it.

Anyway, I’ll leave it here. I think I’ve gone long enough. Now, this is the very first time ever that I’ve mentioned anything like this in any public arena. I’ve never ever mentioned any of this to anyone, friends or family for fear of ridicule. Especially since I’m very much in the public eye in the job I do. Saying that, I feel strongly that it’s time to get it off one’s chest so to speak. Anyway, that’s my story. 

All the best,

Regards 

Mark E.